There comes a time in life when you are placed at a cross-roads, a place where you have no idea where either one of those roads leads or where it will take you. For so long I have had my mind set on what I wanted in life that I almost forgot what I needed.
Water
Food
Shelter
I have all of that. But what about Maslow's Hierarchy of needs. The needs that are required for me to feel whole or better yet human. I can honestly say I am failing miserably at one of those things. that category is the Love and Belonging stage. I mean as far as my family and my friends I have more than enough. I can feel their support with every decision I make even if it is not the best. but then there is the question of how I can I possibly be failing when I the majority of the stage is filled?
Relationships, Relationships, RE LA TION SHIPS . That word makes me filled with a ton of mixed emotions. Its almost as if I have been thrown into a maze and I am second guessing every decision I make. I know I have heard this a thousand and one times that I need to concentrate on me and what makes me happy. But what if what makes me happy is the fact that I know someone is their to truly watch me succeed, someone to make all my bad memories disappear as if they never existed. Someone to show me that there truly is a rainbow where the rain once was. That maybe if I let go of the past that I will be able to find true happiness.
But at this point as if I am just settling. Settling because I am afraid of hurting someones feelings, I am afraid of feeling as if I tore someone's world apart when my world was never whole to begin with. I am settling because I am afraid of walking this hard path to my destiny alone. Am I that defiant that I truly will not listen to the will of God. And understand that he has crafted the proper path for me to follow and be successful.
