Web design Help

I am in need of help with my Portfolio website. I have my ideas fabricated on paper and in my mind but I cannot seem to get my ideas from paper and my head to Dreamweaver. i love the software do not get me wrong, but as far as the layout and composition goes I cannot seem to get things where I want them to go. I want to be original and not use a "Build-a-website" tool. I want to start physically from scratch and learn the material. I want to be able to put that I can use Dream Weaver and actually have a product to display for big businesses

The Title : TO BE DETERMINED

Content: 

• writing
• photography
• videography
• blogging (of course) :)
• my resume
• my contact info

I want my website to display my individuality and my personality all on one page.


IF ANYONE CAN ASSIST ME ! I WOULD APPRECIATE IT!!!

Open Mind

Staying composed and ordinary has always been an outlet of mine. But when my world and someone else's world come together there is a sort of negotiation that must take place. It is important to always remember to see eye to eye with some one even if it is not your first thought.

It has always been a priority of mind to keep a routine and keep the same rhythm of whatever I am doing constant. I consider my life like a river with a constant flow in a certain direction. Any change of breeze or alteration of movement can change the river's flow.

As an adult with hopes of continuing my life with another person, I have to open my eyes and heart and also allow them the chance to have their own voice and speak it freely. While in the back of my mind always remember my opinion matters just as much as the next person.

The Perfect One

A miracle in God's own creation
Someone Just for me
An image in my head, a memory in my imagination
To come and take me away from here and set me free

A demonic angel, someone to break the spell
A deep hole in my dreams
To cure me of all my heartache and make me well
But all so crazy as this may seem.

My deepest fear is that I may arise
And I will not hear your voice
But to my joy, my pride, what a surprise
An outstanding pristine choice

I am not being picky , or arrogant, or rude
I want to be completely and utterly sane
But mind my girlish and immature attitude
Because in reality I am transparent and plain

Until the day I waltz upon death and bones
I stay pure and angelic inside
But my heart is no longer full of love but yet stones
If you can't hear me, at least I tried

My dignity, my trust, are all long gone
I will search every mountain at its highest till dawn
My knees are going weak I can no longer stand
Hopefully you completely  understand

To my death bed walking, I will go
My talents, my desires, and my wants plan the way
Time moves not fast but ever so slow
Deep inside your heart I want to stay

Like Many people

I know there are alot of people who have dreams that wish would desperately come true. Just like those people so do I. I have dreams of being recognized as a writer. Not just someone who spills her thoughts on paper or on a computer screen but some one who actually has a great way of expressing her thoughts on paper. I have the ability to type a 3-page paper on any given topic in an hour. (with the proper research of course) I have the power to spill my heart and soul into everything that I write. Forgetting about the possibility of having grammatical errors, I have too much training for that. I have gone several schools where they require that I write efficiently but so that what I write makes sense. I think that I have taken that meaning to a whole other level. I'm the kind of girl that enjoys going to the library so much I have one overdue book that I almost forgot I had and that I owned. I spend more time at the library or writing than I do doing my own hair. I mean every time I lay my head down to sleep my head is spinning with different thoughts that I just have to get out on paper. I had someone ask me what type of writer I want to be and do you know what my response is, the one without any boundaries the kind that not only can express their thoughts freely but openly without any harsh opinion of others.

To be honest I dont even remember the first time I began taking writing seriously. Maybe it was the time that my teacher gave me my first 5- paragraph essay with the 5 sentences per paragraph rule and oh yeah dont for get to indent and captialize every letter that comes after a period. And please oh please no redundancies or fragments. What the heck is a fragment anyway? We speak in fragments therefore they should be acceptable to put on paper right??? Oh wait Im rambling but thats what it take to be a writer, Just ramble and keep rambling until those rambles become complete thoughts and sentences.

I don't know what annoys me more. When people say they dislike writing or when people say its too much or they prefer not to do it. How far do you expect to get in life with that attitude. You are going have to write for the rest of your life whether it be a simple text or signing your life away on a house or insurance you are still going to have to compose your thoughts. I try to take that nagging feeling most people consider it to be and transform it into a craft. I like to use words and make them beautifullllll! See even blogger tries to grammtically change what I say. Go Figure

Cry

When there is nothing but negativity in your mind at night the only thing you can do is cry, cry yourself to sleep. Forget counting sheep. Jus let every tear from every bad thought in your head jus fall, not a graceful fall but crash hard on your pillow. When your heart is beating so fast you can't catch the beat when you are so stressed u feel it in your feet when the pain is unbearable jus the thought makes u cringe forget that stupid lullaby and do yourself a favor and cry. Just cry till there's nothing left, no more sorrow or guilt cry because your out of years cry because you've seen through the years. All I'm asking is for my sleep back, not a dream just simply the ability to close my eyes and just breathe.

Remeber Who I am

If there is one thing i have learned it is to never forget who you are and who you are meant to be. Even if you feel that someone has the power to strip you of your hopes and dreams, those people will only have those powers if you allow them to.

For many years I have had serious dreams of moving to a nice upbeat city, living in a nice apartment, working at the best company, dressing to impress the world and making my parents and family proud of me. I have dreams of eventually writing my own story of writing my own autobiography about my life and sharing it with the world.

No matter how many stories I have read where men have always been the center piece in a woman's life I will always remember that my father, grandfather, and my brother will always be the main center piece in my life, I have to remember that know one can take their places and that I have to find someone to match the qualities my mother saw in my father.

Just like everyone I simply want the finer things in life. I want less stress and more progress. if that means cutting ties with sores and unimportant people to get what I wan then so be it. I know my worth and how hard I have worked to achieve it. By the age of 25 I want to have the blue print and foundation for my dreams already in place