when one door closes another one opens

Up until this point, I have experienced rejection from a lot of companies that I really wanted to work for. I admired their marketing, internal communication, the atmosphere that each business has really captured may attention. As a graduating college student, the amount of experience that these companies are expecting seems almost impossible to meet due to the amount of time that has been available during my academic career.

I was able however to gain important assets during my time at school. I was able to learn the tools, basic and complex that are needed to truly understand my career. I have recently become successful and found an internship to add to my resume. I have a specific approach to the usage of an internship. I want it to be essential to truly having a hands on experience in the field.

Personal Statement

“Dreams are true, while they last, and do we not live in dreams?” (Alfred Lord Tennyson- 1869).

As a young child it is easy to dream of what you want to be and where you want to go during a lifetime. But once you’ve reached the age where that dreaming has to become a reality you must not sit still. As the conclusion of my academic career draws near, the best advice I can bestow upon anyone who reaches my portfolio is to never stop dreaming or better yet, NEVER BE LESS THEN YOUR DREAMS

And the Truth comes out

I remember all the events of my life, ALL OF THEM even the ones that I wish never happened. I remember my first friend, I remember the first day of school (elementary, middle, high school, and even college) I remember falling in love for the first time, I remember my first kiss, even my first time. All of those first led to so many other things. The hardest part is learning which of all your endeavors you want to relive, which to regret, and which to forget.
 The memories that serve a special meaning in my life. Like meeting my little brother for the first time or meeting my first roommate . Those are special times that still make me smile to this day. Although they were years ago, I still have a reason to keep them in the back of my mind. They are thoughts I intend to cherish for the rest of my life.

Aside from the good memories there are also those thoughts that I try to put and keep behind me. Everyone at some point and time goes through those reckless stages. Unfortunately, my reckless stage began my junior year in high school and ended my sophomore year of college. During that time, I thought that my body was the only way for guys to notice me or pay any attention to me.  At the time I thought it was the only way for me to be seen. I let guys take advantage of what I had to offer. I'll be even more brutally honest. I thought it was there way of showing their affection. However, I was wrong. They took my kindness for weakness. But who am i to point to the finger when I let it happen. I let them in. It became essentially an addiction. Almost like a drug. To the point where it seemed like there was no going back from it. And as a result I earned myself that "label". Every day I would look in the mirror and find myself questioning who I was. Was i the little girl that my parents tried to raise to be Godly, and respect and love her body? Or had I turned into a creature that was consumed in her own irrational obsession with the sensual side that made me human?

Even when I try to bury those hidden agendas deep in the past.They some how find ways to resurface. And just like everything that I do, good or bad, I will have to live with the decisions and choices that I make.

Web design Help

I am in need of help with my Portfolio website. I have my ideas fabricated on paper and in my mind but I cannot seem to get my ideas from paper and my head to Dreamweaver. i love the software do not get me wrong, but as far as the layout and composition goes I cannot seem to get things where I want them to go. I want to be original and not use a "Build-a-website" tool. I want to start physically from scratch and learn the material. I want to be able to put that I can use Dream Weaver and actually have a product to display for big businesses

The Title : TO BE DETERMINED

Content: 

• writing
• photography
• videography
• blogging (of course) :)
• my resume
• my contact info

I want my website to display my individuality and my personality all on one page.


IF ANYONE CAN ASSIST ME ! I WOULD APPRECIATE IT!!!

Open Mind

Staying composed and ordinary has always been an outlet of mine. But when my world and someone else's world come together there is a sort of negotiation that must take place. It is important to always remember to see eye to eye with some one even if it is not your first thought.

It has always been a priority of mind to keep a routine and keep the same rhythm of whatever I am doing constant. I consider my life like a river with a constant flow in a certain direction. Any change of breeze or alteration of movement can change the river's flow.

As an adult with hopes of continuing my life with another person, I have to open my eyes and heart and also allow them the chance to have their own voice and speak it freely. While in the back of my mind always remember my opinion matters just as much as the next person.

The Perfect One

A miracle in God's own creation
Someone Just for me
An image in my head, a memory in my imagination
To come and take me away from here and set me free

A demonic angel, someone to break the spell
A deep hole in my dreams
To cure me of all my heartache and make me well
But all so crazy as this may seem.

My deepest fear is that I may arise
And I will not hear your voice
But to my joy, my pride, what a surprise
An outstanding pristine choice

I am not being picky , or arrogant, or rude
I want to be completely and utterly sane
But mind my girlish and immature attitude
Because in reality I am transparent and plain

Until the day I waltz upon death and bones
I stay pure and angelic inside
But my heart is no longer full of love but yet stones
If you can't hear me, at least I tried

My dignity, my trust, are all long gone
I will search every mountain at its highest till dawn
My knees are going weak I can no longer stand
Hopefully you completely  understand

To my death bed walking, I will go
My talents, my desires, and my wants plan the way
Time moves not fast but ever so slow
Deep inside your heart I want to stay

Like Many people

I know there are alot of people who have dreams that wish would desperately come true. Just like those people so do I. I have dreams of being recognized as a writer. Not just someone who spills her thoughts on paper or on a computer screen but some one who actually has a great way of expressing her thoughts on paper. I have the ability to type a 3-page paper on any given topic in an hour. (with the proper research of course) I have the power to spill my heart and soul into everything that I write. Forgetting about the possibility of having grammatical errors, I have too much training for that. I have gone several schools where they require that I write efficiently but so that what I write makes sense. I think that I have taken that meaning to a whole other level. I'm the kind of girl that enjoys going to the library so much I have one overdue book that I almost forgot I had and that I owned. I spend more time at the library or writing than I do doing my own hair. I mean every time I lay my head down to sleep my head is spinning with different thoughts that I just have to get out on paper. I had someone ask me what type of writer I want to be and do you know what my response is, the one without any boundaries the kind that not only can express their thoughts freely but openly without any harsh opinion of others.

To be honest I dont even remember the first time I began taking writing seriously. Maybe it was the time that my teacher gave me my first 5- paragraph essay with the 5 sentences per paragraph rule and oh yeah dont for get to indent and captialize every letter that comes after a period. And please oh please no redundancies or fragments. What the heck is a fragment anyway? We speak in fragments therefore they should be acceptable to put on paper right??? Oh wait Im rambling but thats what it take to be a writer, Just ramble and keep rambling until those rambles become complete thoughts and sentences.

I don't know what annoys me more. When people say they dislike writing or when people say its too much or they prefer not to do it. How far do you expect to get in life with that attitude. You are going have to write for the rest of your life whether it be a simple text or signing your life away on a house or insurance you are still going to have to compose your thoughts. I try to take that nagging feeling most people consider it to be and transform it into a craft. I like to use words and make them beautifullllll! See even blogger tries to grammtically change what I say. Go Figure